It is a crisp Autumn day, the sky is sheer blue. A low bright sun, lights trees turned gold and red, and I am driving to the sodding supermarket. It feels as if it is the fifty millionth time I have driven to the supermarket and I’m over it. Obviously, we have to eat and I’m not organised enough to ensure and effective on-line delivery so this is the alternative. A reasonable alternative, bearing in mind I am, on paper, a woman with time on my hands. My child is at school and I am at home and yet time alludes me.
My time gets eaten my random things, aside from domestic tasks, that while valid, have some how become frustrating. Time spent gently prizing 75 defrosting sausages apart, laying each one out, until neat rows of pork sausages cover every surface of my small kitchen. I’m vegetarian. How did I even get roped into this one? An afternoon combing e-bay for the cheapest by volume box of glo-sticks. At the supermarket (again) buying things for a party I won’t be attending. Replying/deleting emails that accumulated during half term, that was a morning lost forever.
Last week I had a List:
Fix things on the blog
Complete a unit or 2 of the photography course
Set up second blog
Re-write CV (again).
Note, the procrastinator in me prioritsed the most important item at the bottom of the list. Top item destined to inexplicably take hours of time with little end result.
In reality none were achieved, the week being lost of multiple minor tasks elsewhere, see grumbling about emails and sausages above.
A late entry list item: “buy clothes because you have nothing, absolutely nothing to wear”. Not true of course, but a day lost at the shops anyway.
The ability to effectively use my time has somehow slipped my grasp and instead I am mostly wearing a metaphorical hat marked ‘grumpy and frustrated’. Clearly, I have time which is why I volunteer to man-handle 75 sausages and organise glo-sticks but in reality I resent the time spent on this. I am my own worst enemy.
This week’s List:
A unit or 2 of the photography course (not achieved from last week)
Read the book ‘Learn HTML in 10 minutes’ (saw it in the library and thought “only 10 minutes”)
Fix things on the blog (wonders if there is a book ‘learn to fix a blog in 10 minutes’).
Buy Christmas cards (a time saving item to feel smug about in December, if achieved before then)
Set up second blog (ironic, given first one still isn’t fixed)
Re-write CV (again).
It is Thursday and achievement levels are at zero.
Somehow, I repeatedly fail to shoehorn these items into my day. Why is that? Is this post just another displacement technique?