Said often, September is about fresh starts and I’m not ready. The last few days have been blue skies and warmth, the chill of darker evenings, just holding off. I have to accept that Autumn is creeping in. I need to adjust to a change in the season, we are all adjusting to a new school year. We’ve been blackberrying, added to early picked apples, pies and crumbles, comfort food of Autumn, forged food for being tucked up on the sofa. I struggle to accept Autumn.
School went back yesterday and I feel as if we strung August out for an extra week, pre-school treats and adventures. The holidays starting unsteadily, August bloomed to be a good one. The focus for August was off-line and September intentions are late, for the same reasons. My energy has been elsewhere on; book bags and labels, final days out. The last few days have also been about trying to rein in late nights and slow mornings. Ready for alarms. The clock and structure of school. I am not prepared for September, so being honest, my intentions this month are not on the table, they are at the desk.
September is about catching up, that have been left idle or on a to do list. September is about re-finding rhythms of routine, gathering accumulated ‘to do’s” from across the summer. Finding some head space, re-focusing. Over the year, each month I have had an idea of my intentions, notes and plans, not in September. There is a jumble of ideas on my head but no clear winners or direction. A slight fog, while I readjust, it’s as if everything sped up and slowed down. School speeds up the day, while an empty house feels slower, child noise absent. I’ve spent yesterday and much of today, drinking tea and not sure where best to start.
I am very aware that August was simplified, reading. Do one thing. I read ‘Do one thing’ – food for thought, thought I’ve not yet given time to. ‘Life after Life’ is a book about fate and the idea that what if you could re-route fate. Ceasing the day, focusing a month at a time, isn’t exactly re-routing fate but it about trying to remain focussed, making the most of time. I am aware of the intentions I had, almost all of July’s intentions fell by the wayside, sometimes life gets in the way, time slips through fingers. I didn’t get around to life planning. While I turned myself to printed pages in August, emails piled up. Blogging and the community aspect of blogging, visiting other blogs ignored.
For September, I want to create some order. Tidy this desk. Sort through the piles of papers, re-visit scribbled notes and plans. Re-find my rhythm. Tick off small things that got forgotten. Bring order to the desk as much as my head. The next two weeks are already filled with things delayed over summer. We are back to Trevella in September. I anticipate September will steam by, all too quickly, an express train month, quickly disappearing into a tunnel and emerging in October. I will be ready for October. More focussed, more organised. Prepared for the shift in seasons. Maybe.
How was your Summer? Who else is still adjusting to September?